THANKFUL

To say the least the last four days have been the hardest I have ever had to go through. Without God standing beside me along with my family and friends, I know that I could not have done it.

But with that said, I am so thankful. I am thankful of ALL my friends and family and Chris Friends. I heard so many stories how Chris helped other people. One of them was a friend he did drugs with and hung around alot. His son died and he was suicidal and he said if it wasn't for Chris he would not be standing there. Because of Chris helping him he was no longer doing drugs and was alive.

Another one that grew up with him and Stephanie told me that he was doing drugs and when Chris got saved he came around all of the time with these handouts about being saved. He said Chris didn't give up on him and kept preaching to him. He wanted us to know he honestly had not done drugs anymore because of Chris (and of course the Lord) helping him.

Chris had talked sooo much about his friends from Church. (Gardendale Baptist) So many of them came and told story after story about their experiences with Chris. They called him "Gangsta Chris". They have a MYSPACE and said Heaven now has Gangsta Chris with them. These young people have no idea how they touched my heart at such a horrific time. They are having a party for him Friday night, celebrating his life and I thought that was so wonderful. Thats what we should do because he is in such a much better place then we are and that I know.

Sometimes it takes tragedies to make blessings happen.

My brother and Dad talked alot for the first time in years. Mike told me he finally had forgiven my Dad for being absent in his life. This is something I have been praying for,for many years.

We are only humans and make mistakes. But you never know when its your time, be ready. As long as you are saved and Know that you know that you know that you know you are going to be with the Lord then you have no worries. Along with the Lord, Chris will be there with open arms welcoming you with that smirky smile of his.

Please continue to keep all of Chris family and friends in your prayers, because prayers really do help. We realize that everyone feels helpless and feels that there is nothing they can do but you are wrong, EVERYONE has been such a blessing to each and everyone of us. I do ask that you say a special prayer for Trinity and Hayden. They are very confused. I haven't talked to Hayden since the funeral but I have Trinity and she is so sad and has so many questions. She is a child beyond her years so she is thinking about everything that most people wouldn't even think about. So PLEASE put her and Hayden in your prayers that the Lord will comfort them and give them peace.

I am thankful for each and everyone one in my life and I love all of you with all my heart. I pray that God will take care of each and everyone of you and will keep you and your family safe in his arms.

One last thing, if I have made my son sound like a perfect man I didn't mean to. Chris had problems and addictions that caused many problems in his life. But in his heart he wanted to please everyone, God included. And he loved his children with all of his heart and his family and friends.